A "sound" and everything starts all over again..

If you're a runner for some time, it's not that hard to tell, if the injury just knocked you down to the ground, is serious enough to make you tie in a bed for the following days -or maybe weeks-, or if it's something that would disappear in few minutes, after you get over with the shock of the moment.

Yesterday, in training, after I fell down, with a cracking sound from my ankle, I knew that it wasn't that kind of a pain, that would go away in minutes, since for the first time I wasn't able to explain what to do to my teammate, because of the tears that were running from my eyes to ears. Even now, I'm not exactly sure if I was crying out of pain or anger of such a stupid ignorance.

I was injured for over a month, from the same ankle, and poetically, with almost the same angle. And I knew that, running without a ankle bracelet is a risk that's not worth taking. But like every small silly girl, I did it anyway. Actually it was not just a one time thing, but I was running out of a bracelet for 1.5 weeks 'till then. I was a little cautious in a way, at least I was watching my steps, 'till I felt like I was ready to run without looking at the ground again, that's yesterday.

For the first time in months, I was trying to deal another performance related problem, other than my ankle. My ankle should have felt a bit jealous, because just at the point of the course, where I was feeling like the training is over, it was really over, for good. After that point, It was something like a off-road biathlon, including a 8.5 km trail run and a 2.5 km downhill mountain biking, with a single leg.

Under normal circumstances, I'm kind of a athlete that would appreciate a little more rest, but definitely it's the worst possible time for this kind of a rest. But a visit to the physician this morning, revealed the hard fact, no one is asking me. It's not a volunteered rest, but an obligatory one, once again. And this time, I'm under strong surveillance, since it's the second time in 2.5 months.

For now, and probably for the coming 2 weeks, I will be hoping to get better until O-Ringen, so that I can maybe jog or even walk along the courses, instead of just standing at the finish line and cheering for my teammates; and dreaming about the idea of having a proper training, without the idea of injury in my head; while my ankle wonders over a pillow.

So it's almost the same story I had 2.5 months ago, with just a small difference, this time I'm really tight on time.

A new season and internship; it's way more complicated than it sounds

Let me first tell you this; I have the best internship I can possibly find in Turkey. That's a good news for my academic career, and let me add one more thing; I'm pretty happy about this opportunity. Also, I'm more ambitious to keep my training going then ever, I mean, I have my dreams (aims maybe?) in head, and I'm reluctant to make them happen. And that's where things get a little bit complicated.

I've been working for 1.5 weeks for now, and my training program is already a mass. I'm not able to find the balance between internship and training. I'm leaving home so early that, I can barely even have a breakfast, and coming so tired, that sometimes I'm not able to get myself off the couch, and fall asleep. But things have to change. It cannot go on like that, obviously.

The first solution that came to my head is, to wake up a bit earlier -like 1 hour earlier- have my training done before leaving for internship, with a rested body, and also a willing mind. First things first. Will try this for the following 2 weeks. I hope that it will work, otherwise, I have to find another way around.


Bonus Content :)

I've just finished reading a book; Life Without Limits, by Chrissie Wellington. It's really an inspirational one. I can heart-fully recommend it to anyone that has doubts about whether they can reach to where they dream. It's also one of the most honest biographies that I've ever red. She's all out there, with all the ups and downs of both an athletic and an academic one, in separate time frames.

I'm taking the book with me wherever I go, first reason is; It keeps reminding me that, anything is possible, if I'm ready and willing to work for it; and another reason; it's a present from someone that's really special for me, and keeps taking my pieces together and get me going every time I fall. Everybody needs that someone in their lives.